Totally neglecting this
It’s been almost a month since I updated, just haven’t felt like typing up things that happened.
Since then things have been a blur. During the week I would just go to work, come home and just do nothing. Man I’ve been lazy. During the weekend was either clubbing in west hollywood or just stay home.
The holidays was whatever. I didn’t even want to buy gifts for anyone because I wasn’t in to mood. I did end up getting some things for my parents, sister, and snoop. I did have to keep it all under a budget since I was low on money with all the bills and loans. I got t-shirts, belt, money, cologne, shoes, and starbucks gift card. I should’ve been bothered by the things I got but I’m just too tired emotionally to be so. I’m still quite irritated with the shoes that I got because they’re the same exact shoes that he got for this other guy, but whatever, I got new shoes, that’s all that matters.
We did go to White Wonderland for new years. Snoop, Kevin and I went. I was glad it was a 21+ event for reasons I’m not going to mention here. Saw my sister there and a few friends. It was a pretty good night for the most part. I just wish they keep it going til 4am but not these days.
Last week I did go to court to get an extension for my community service date because I haven’t been going at all. For the past few months I haven’t been in the mind state to go and do it, it just seems like everyday my mind is consume in thinking about my relationship and nothing else. I know it’s not fair to myself to be doing that but when that part of my life, the biggest part of my life, is in chaos, that’s all I can think about.
I have been going to west hollywood way too much the past few months. Almost every weekend I’m there. I still do have a drinking problem, but that just seems to be my only escape from this life here at home. Perhaps when I can figure out what to do with this relationship then may be my drinking will be under control.